HURT: A Poem/Spoken Word

Did I Hurt you

When I said no more?

Because it Hurt me, too

That you didn’t tell me 

Before

How nice it could feel

For me to be yours


You showed up

With no warning

Barely a morning’s

Breath 

After I left

And you tell me

That I’m what you want


And those words 

Made me feel so good

Made me feel worth

Something

When for so long

I was worth 

Nothing

To you

Or so I thought

Because there you were

Wanting me to 

Leap with you


Am I worth

The Hurt

That will come from that Leap?

I have to tell myself

No

I am worth

More

I shouldn’t have to bleed

To feel loved

Loving should not

Hurt


Your green eyes

Stare at me hard

Honest

I haven’t seen them

Ever like this

It’s almost as if

I can trust

That stare

And those words

And I run my hands through your hair

And I believe you


And for the first time

You are genuine

And true

And in love


And for the first time

It doesn’t matter

Because for the first time

I can’t be blind

To the Hurt


There is someone else

And he is soft

And he is kind

And he is enamored with my mind

Not my breasts

And the rest 

Doesn’t matter

Because even if you had my heart

He can love me better


Did that Hurt?

It hurts me too

Because for now

Even though I want him

And I choose him

Every now and then

I’m still thinking about you